These haven't been the best few days. I have not felt like this in a while . I literally have been sleeping for the past four days. I went out last night and went out tonight for a little bit, of course after sleeping until 5pm. Every night I would tell myself , "Ok tomorrow I will not sleep. I will wake up and do what I have to do to make my dreams come true." It did not work. Ptwitty only inspired me at night.
Don't get me wrong but I have gotten some work done , after 5pm til the wee hours of the morning , as I am doing now. There's a big but : I don't have a social life anymore. You are probably wondering what the big deal is. I have been making myself depressed by just staying in bed all day and not having any contact with people except through Twitter.
I woke up today (@ 5pm) with the intention of going to the movies by myself (another personal thing im working on which I will tell you when I am ready) and going to the Apple store to buy a necessary new battery for my macbook. I did not go to the movies. Went to the apple store alright , and the store was closed. I felt like an idiot . This was the point where I just got fed up with myself and told myself that I need to wake up. Like literally wake up. I thought about how I just wasted a day really believing that the store would be open late on a Sunday. I need to start believing that nothing will wait for me and that I need to do it right then and there as if it will slip out from under my hand if I don't do nothing about it at that moment. You get what I am saying?
So I came home after a fun and very interesting night out and made a list of my goals for the week . If I get them done, i'll buy myself a gift like a bag or something . The catch is that most of it needs to be done during the day.
I am going to sleep soon. I am praying for someone up there to give me the strength I need to get up in the morning and follow my dream.
P.S. This pic is not a pic of me now. I look like an Insomniac hot mess right now and I will not allow you to see me like this .
Don't get me wrong but I have gotten some work done , after 5pm til the wee hours of the morning , as I am doing now. There's a big but : I don't have a social life anymore. You are probably wondering what the big deal is. I have been making myself depressed by just staying in bed all day and not having any contact with people except through Twitter.
I woke up today (@ 5pm) with the intention of going to the movies by myself (another personal thing im working on which I will tell you when I am ready) and going to the Apple store to buy a necessary new battery for my macbook. I did not go to the movies. Went to the apple store alright , and the store was closed. I felt like an idiot . This was the point where I just got fed up with myself and told myself that I need to wake up. Like literally wake up. I thought about how I just wasted a day really believing that the store would be open late on a Sunday. I need to start believing that nothing will wait for me and that I need to do it right then and there as if it will slip out from under my hand if I don't do nothing about it at that moment. You get what I am saying?
So I came home after a fun and very interesting night out and made a list of my goals for the week . If I get them done, i'll buy myself a gift like a bag or something . The catch is that most of it needs to be done during the day.
I am going to sleep soon. I am praying for someone up there to give me the strength I need to get up in the morning and follow my dream.
P.S. This pic is not a pic of me now. I look like an Insomniac hot mess right now and I will not allow you to see me like this .
